Appreciation

Yup here's just a random post. Many things I have learned throughout this semester and I just want to ramble it out (honestly because I don't know what to write...haha...) I guess because it's exam time and I'm just letting out my stress in here...haha...so here goes

Lesson 1 : God will always be there whether we like it or not. We can't run away from God. He is always just next to us but whether we listen to Him it's a different story. So I guess it's good to take some time to be still in His presence and surely He will answer you.

Lesson 2 : Family and friends are very important. I really thank God for putting me into this family of mine. I have a great dad, the best mom and a very caring and loving brother. I really thank God for them for always being there for me (financially, spiritually and physically). God always shower me with His love through them. Next, my friends I'm also very grateful. They share our laughter and pain(at times). I really am happy for good house mates. They have always been there for me especially when I'm down. Not forgetting my course mates and church mates. Thank you brother and sisters in Christ.

Lesson 3 : Money isn't everything. I think this whole semester I've been living(too some eyes) very poorly. I have been pinching my money very slowly (mainly because no money). In addition I had to pay my lecturers for notes and also buy books(not cheap..I think my lecturer cheated us...but anyhow may God still bless him). Even though with shortage of funds, I've never been happier. In fact, God has blessed me through many people. I think I learn how to trust God. He will take care of us.

Lesson 4 : I honestly learn to let go or should I say learning to say 'NO' (not 100% but at least learnt and am trying) I guess God has been shaping me and moulding me in university. I thank God for giving opportunities to serve Him and also learn how to balance out my life. I'm also learning that saying 'no' at times is also showing love(spare the rod, spoil the child...hehe...)It is not easy, but I'm learning.

Lesson 5 : Lastly, I think God has blessed me with a lot of things(although I lost things too)I had a great trip in UK and Europe. I had a good semester(although some ups and downs) but clearly He was there. He uplifts me through many verses and songs. I think I learn a lot of new songs this semester...haha...

So in conclusion....I also dunno what to conclude...haha...I really just simply rambling stuff...haha....God is good and He will always be the same yesterday, today and forevermore....

I think I'm like this tree...keep on growing...

Before the Morning

I think this song will be my song for this semester...it helped me a lot especially during my hard times. Do reflect on the words. I'm not sure whether the video could be played but here is the link...do listen to it and I hope that you'll be blessed just as much as I am.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mfWAG-bnttQ

BEFORE THE MORNING LYRICS - JOSH WILSON

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:
Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

So hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning
before the morning, yeah, yeah
before the morning

Still learning...

Well I always find it hard or don't really understand why God put me in these type of situation. Is God teaching me patience and self control or teaching me to discipline with love. I always struggle within myself whether to do certain things. As we all know every action will have a reaction and are we ready to face those circumstances. In fact my whole life I have to face with so many types of people. God is really teaching me to love everyone and it's not easy. It can get physically and spiritually draining. I guess I'm still learning and in the process I do hurt people feelings and of course my own feelings. I'm also learning to tolerate. Although people seldom see me angry but I will snap occasionally after my limit(which I'm not sure what my limit is). The thing that I still question God is how do we discipline with love. The Bible always say to love your neighbour as yourself and even to love your enemies. It's not easy. So if I scold someone does that mean I don't love them? But parents scold us to show that the love them. We get scolded so that it will discipline us, to build up our character. Jesus did scold sometimes but did it with love. I guess I'm still learning and it is so so so so hard. I always feel that if I don't yes to people it means that I'm not learning. But many people has told me that sometimes saying no or 'scolding', doesn't mean that you don't love that person but actually we are, to help build up character.

My PERKEB family

Well one semester is about to end. This semester has been a great one. Despite of all the bad things that happen, God still showed Himself to me. As the 'Daddy' of this family, it was really great working and serving this family. I've got to know so many things about this family. About their ups and downs. But most importantly is that God was really the head of this family. I thank God for this wonderful semester that His presence was with us all the time. I also am thankful for my this family. Thanks guys for supporting and also helping. I sure know that God will bless you guys. For now, it's time to focus on my exams...which is like in two weeks time...wow how time flies...

Miracle Suree

It's been one week since my car broke down. The good thing is that it fixed by itself. The night on the way for my exam, my car broke down at the traffic light. Just suddenly everything went down. I could not even start the car after that. Then I thank God for my house mates who lend me their car to drive to exam and they helped me push the car to the petrol station. They even called the mechanic for me but the mechanic could only come in the morning. Well during the exam I was focusing more on the car then my paper. Oh well...it's done anyway. Then the next morning I went with the mechanic to see my car and guess what...it worked!!! The mechanic try to see what's the problem but said there was nothing wrong with it. Everything is fine. So I said what to do now and his statement was just drive la...if break down again then only call...haha...So it's been a week from that day and my car is perfectly fine. Amen!!! I've kind off got tired of fixing my car. (FYI..my car is already 13 years old) I pray that the car will last me another 2 years!!!

My faithful car 'Suree'

L.O.V.E

Love...What is LOVE? Love is the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment (according to dictionary). In philosophical context, love is a virtue representing all of human kindness,compassion, andaffection. In the Bible, 2 different Greek words are translated as "love" in the New Testament, and they have more specific meanings than our English word "love."

Agapao (verb) and agape (noun). This is the "Christian love" of the Bible. It means affection, benevolence, good-will, high esteem and concern for the welfare of the one loved. It is deliberate, purposeful love rather than emotional or impulsive love. Almost all of the New Testament references to love are agapao or agape in the original Greek. The King James Version of the Bible sometimes translates agape as "charity," but charity has now taken on the meaning of assistance to the poor rather than benevolent love.

Phileo (verb). This means to love in an impulsive and emotional way. It is seldom used in the Bible, but there is a play on words (lost in English) in John 21:15-17. Jesus says to Peter, "Simon son of John, do you truly love (agapao) me?" Peter answers, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love (phileo) you." Philadelphia is a related word meaning the love of brothers or sisters (e.g.,Romans 12:10). It is often translated "brotherly love."

Now back to myself, how would you know that you really have feelings for that person. Is it just because we're closed? Or because we want attention? Or just peer pressure? Or it's really true? Many I've seen can survive so long. Many were just so called puppy love. So when we pray for the right one from God, how would really know it's from Him. Hmm...many have been praying over me about that since last year. But I do feel a bit weird when I see that someone. Does that mean I like her? Hmm...something to ponder....

So what is love? Well everyone has different view about this. But to me I think the best love is from God. His love never ceases and will never change. The best part is that even though we fail Him, He still loves us the same. In fact, He loved us so much that He even sent His one and only son to die on the cross for our sins (John 3:16). Well who could have ask for more.

Anyway for now I'm clinging to God's love. Because His love is perfect and it will cast out all fear...

Masa Allah

Masa Allah what a nice word to hear. If you join the words and read it goes like this 'masalah'. So every time you are faced with a problem remember that God is there. It's God's time. He cares for us so much even the littlest of details. So whatever problem you faced be it big or small, He still wants us to draw close to Him and trust in Him. This whole week has been a hectic one for me. As the semester is ending soon, lecturers have been giving many last minute work like assignments and lab reports. Not only that, my car broke down again. Oh well, I guess it was a test of faith. The miraculous thing is that my car got fixed by itself. Thank You Lord. I hope and pray that the car is completely heal. I now know that God was trying to answer my prayer. I just need to depend in Him. Even though I may not be a good Christian but that doesn't mean that God loves me less. He loves everyone the same which is a whole lot.

Great Reminders

Wow...today has been an awesome day. I really thank God for giving me courage and leading me to lead the people to worship. I was super nervous (although people thinks I'm not). I'm happy that many was touched by the worship but it's not because of me but because God's presence was there. In worship, it's not about the music or songs but our hearts. I'm sure that God was speaking to everyone's heart including mine. Thank You Lord for being my friend and indeed You are high and lifted up. God thank You for spending time with me. Thank You for sending people into my life to constantly remind me of how great You are. Thanks bro for the encouragement. Well I'm still learning and hope that I can inspire many people in the future. But most I remembered is that my strength and hope comes from the Lord in Him I shall trust. Amen!!!

!Another great reminder is from my Pastor. He shared that we should have a strong foundation. Today is about strong foundation on reading the Word. Not only reading but studying it and meditate on it. It encourage me to start back reading the bible. This time with a different approach. I hope that God will give me the wisdom and strength to continue this habit.

Busy???

Well a lot of people has been asking me am I that busy. Well in fact I'm also not sure why am I so packed with things...haha...But I would admit that I am busy. I guess because it's approaching end of semester and many assignments and replacement lab have pretty much filled up my time. Not only that, my CF is about to end which means many things have to be done. I guess I just want to take a rest. Not really burning out but just tired. Well today had a been a good reminder by my friends and leaders. I should take a break but just for a while and focus back on God. In Him will I find my source of strength. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness and surely He will bless me. Thank You, Lord for the reminder.