Wednesday, 30 December 2009

Sarawak Trip

Finally can be blogging again. I'm back in uni so I can finally go online. Anyway, now it's finally time to blog about my Sarawak trip. I have many photos and I dont think I can upload 300 over photos, so I decided to make it as a video which I've yet to do. Overall, the trip was fantastic. I went to Kuching then to Sibu then to Miri. I was in each city for 2 days. Each city has their own mascot.

In Kuching we visited a lot of places. From museums to hotels. From shopping centres to street markets. We tried local food there like golok mee and laksa Sarawak. To me, golok mee looks like char siew mee and laksa sarawak is exactly like curry mee but the lemak type. They use meehoon in the laksa but it's the thick type. Not like in Semenanjung the thin thin meehoon. We also visited Fort Magherita (I think that's how you spell it). It's a nice building but too bad we can't enter it so we only took pictures outside the gate. We also went to people's park at night. It's a park to symbolise the friendship between China and Malaysia. It has a big statue of Laksamana Cheng Ho but it was too dark to take picture for we went at night. We also went to visit the cultural village. This is my second time there and I still enjoy it. You really get to experience the different cultures of Sarawak. It is also the venue of the famous event Rainforest Music Festival. Here's a tip, do bring along your student card if you are going to visit the cultural village. Your fare will be only RM15 if not you have to pay RM6o. At night, you can stroll along the river bank. You can snap a thousand over pictures with all the cat statues around the city. The mascot of Kuching is of course the cat.

View at river bank (night) Fort Magherita Cultural Village

People's Park View at river bank (day)


In order to get to Sibu from Kuching, we took a bus. It was the cheapest mode of transport but the longest. The bus was an 8 hour journey and it was a bumpy ride. You can't even sleep in the bus for you will be bouncing up and down most of the time. The bus ticketing price is also very funny. It follows like airplane ticket. Meaning at one time it will cost RM10 and in just ten minutes later it can go up to RM20. The earlier you buy the cheaper it is. The back seats are also cheaper but the most bumpy. When we got to Sibu we went to visit the night life of the city that was the pasar malam and a place known as the Gateway. Sibu is a nice little town just like Ipoh. There's nothing much to do but eat and eat and eat. So the whole time there, we tried different food like snails, kampua mee and many exotic food. Seafood here is fresh. Kampua mee is like golok mee in Kuching. The laksa here is sweeter. I also tried mee suah. It's like noodles in wine. People in Sibu likes to do gardening. All houses are filled with their own vegetable and herbs patch. I guess Sibu people have green fingers. For Sibu, the swan is their symbol.

The streets in Sibu is decorated with Christmas trees 9-Storey Temples

The Gateway Rajang river

Again another grueling 8 hours bus ride, we finally reached Miri. Miri is to me is like a cleaner and bigger version of Penang. Again the food here tastes different and the seafood is the best and freshest. we visited a crocodile farm. I got to feed a horse and goats. Got to see procupines, mynahs, emu and of course crocodiles. All the crocodiles are so huge and all sleeping only until it was feeding session. Then we visited the beach and also Marina Bay whereby we saw the sun set. We also visited the petroleum museum. There was nothing much and it looks like PetroScience in KLCC but a smaller version. In Miri, we played cards till late night and also learn how to play Mahjong. We left from Miri airport to LCCT. Our plane was delayed for an hour and we stayed over in LCCT Coffee Bean until the next morning. In Miri, the mascot will be seahorse.

Crocodile farm View from Petroleum Museum

Sunset at Marina Bay Lighthouse

All in all the trip was enjoyable but tiring. I recommend to sit planes from one place to another. It's a bit more pricy but it saves a lot of time. There's sure a lot of things to eat so prepare a big appetite. Also bring a lot of cash to spend on souvenirs and many more. Remember to bring your student card too. You never know when you might get discounts.

P.S I'll post the video of pictures soon I think. Let me find the time to do so. For now I'll upload some of the pictures only.

Friday, 27 November 2009

No Blogging

Yup as the title says I wont be able to be blogging for awhile. This is because I have no connection at home. Only able to post this at a cyber cafe. I have loads to blog especially my trip to Sarawak but I guess it'll have to wait till end of december when I go back to uni. Many things have changed during this holiday and many events will be coming up in the future too. I hope that I can continue to blog. Anyway, take care everybody. Happy holidays! Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

Sleepless night

Last night or should I say this morning, I couldn't sleep at all. Thus, resulting that I didn't sleep the whole night. Yup I was actually awake for more than 24hours. This thing happens to me occasionally and I'm not sure why. Maybe because I had teh tarik at night before going to bed. The last time that this thing happened to me was last year where I was up the whole night thinking for a theme for MK09. This time I tried to put myself to sleep by studying but it didnt work. So I stayed up all night reading books and watching movies. I got bored but not tired. I thank God that I dont have exam today if not i'm going to the price for it. I was so bored that I actually took pictures for the sun to rise. Haha....

4.30am (barely can see anything)

5.30am (can see the tree a bit)

6.30am (the sun is up)

7.30am (the sun is in the horizon)

8.30am (the sun is up in the sky, shining so brightly)

Tuesday, 3 November 2009

Life Lesson

This is a very common email or article but I still would like to share this to everyone. It really made me think and learn to appreciate life more.
A professor stood before his philosophy class And had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students, if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.' The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. 'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things - family, children, health, friends – Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car. The sand is everything else --The small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, You will never have room for the things that are important to you. So... Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. spend time with your family. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your friends out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and study. 'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.' One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Wednesday, 28 October 2009

Chilis Again!!!

This is my second time to Chilis in Midvalley and of course it was the best. This time I went with a few other PERKEBians. Two juniors and one fellow mate. This time we were smarter, we ordered 3 things and shared. The portions as usual was huge and it was more than enough. Besides that, we ordered the Tostada Chips which is refillable and so are the drinks. After that, Su Jian joined us for a late night movie. We watched Whiteout and honestly I would not recommend that film unless you really like Kate Beckinsale (I think I spelt her name correctly). The movie is quite slow moving and the ending is very very very disappointing or meaningless. Another show maybe not recommended to watch in the cinema is Pandora...Haha... I watched that too in the cinema. It has a great storyline but a bit confusing. Nice ending though.

Wednesday, 7 October 2009

Good Break

Wow finally can start blogging again after so long. Things have really gone so crazy in UKM. Never in my life I have so many assignments. The worst part is when you finished one and handed up and the next thing you know is that the lecturer gives you another one. Anyway, the Raya break was really something which I needed. I thank God that I had a wonderful holiday. It even come to a point that I didn't want to come back to uni also...Haha... During the holidays I met up with many of my friends, both church and school. It was really nice to get to meet up with them. The best part was also to meet my parents. Home is still best. During the holidays, I went walking with my mom and her friend. We walked in Polo Ground. While walking we saw many people flying kites and my mom suggested that we buy one and fly one too. Of course we thought it was a joke but I was wrong. My mom was serious so we really did fly a kite. It was so fun. Brings back childhood memories. I flew my first kite when I was 8 with my dad. At that time the kites were made of sticks and plastics and it always get caught up in trees or electric poles. Now kites are made of plastic frames and clothes. It was really fun. never in my life I flew a kite so high. My mom ask me to bring back to uni so that I would fly the kite to distress. So far I only did it once in uni ever since I got back. I guess I'll fly it again when all my assignments are done. Haha...

Saturday, 19 September 2009

Signal Error

Do people get the wrong signals about me when I'm being too good or kind too people? Why do people think that I'm interested in someone when I treat everyone the same? I always treat everyone nicely. I do tend to give in to people which I'm trying to learn to say no. By being kind, is that giving the wrong signals? Does that mean that I'm interested in that person? I really dont know what to do? Thanks for the comments to ask me to be myself. But when I'm being myself people may tend to get the wrong signals. So how do I get to be myself? If I set boundaries also, people will complain why I'm acting cold. I'm so lost. Really never felt like this before. Now sometimes it's so hard to be myself.

Sunday, 13 September 2009

Too Kind or Too Cold

This thing has been in my mind for a very long time now. It seems very hard to differentiate them. To all who know me, am I too kind or too cold? Do tell me please so that I could change myself. I've always been friendly to people that people sometimes tell me not to be too kind. If I'm too kind people may tend to take advantage of me. So they said I should set some boundaries. But when I did that, now people saying that I'm too cold. So what should I do? When I give in to people, they said I'm being too kind. When I set certain boundaries, they said I'm too cold. So how would I know what's the difference. How can I balance the two? I don't want to be cold and also not too kind until people take advantage of me. Or should I just let be? Just continue to be old happy-go-lucky self. I need your help. Am I too kind or being too cold?

God's Many Blessings

Just last Wednesday I fell sick again. In the midst of my mid sem I fell sick. Seems to be the same every year..oh well. However, God has been faithful and He showered many blessings upon me. I came down with a flu, fever and a cough. All symptoms of H1N1. At first, I was scared. Many thoughts came through my mind. But at the back of my head I know that God will heal and protect me. Thank God is not H1N1. Just a common flu. But God bless me with many good friends. They bless me with food, fluids and medication. Too much food in fact. It can help me keep myself full for many days. Thank you all. By Friday, my fever was gone and now only left with a stuffed nose..hehe...God's promises never fails...Amen!!!

Saturday, 12 September 2009

Michael Learns To Rock Concert

Last weekend I got to go for the MLTR concert in Gentings. Man it was a good show. The band sang most of their old songs and some brand new songs. The nicer part was when they sang the older songs...hehe... But we had a great time singing and shouting. I went to the concert with my mom, bro, his gf and his friends. The funny part or tense part was when my bro's friend misplaced the ticket. In the end we had to buy new tickets. That thing alone caused my bro and I to fight. Maybe because I was too tired and over excited at the same time. Anyway, we let things settle down and still went for the concert. It was really awesome. I'm still waiting for the pictures taken by my bro's friend cause I don't have a digital camera so could only take pictures from afar(phone camera). The band still can play and sing. I wonder why they call themselves Michael Learns To Rock when there is no member named Michael and most of their songs are slow romantic songs and only 1 rock song...haha...anyway it was good to hear their classic songs like 'Paint My Love' and 'Sleeping Child'. All in all it was a good concert. Besides the cool breeze in Gentings was also good enough...

Monday, 31 August 2009

Happy Birthday Malaysia

Today our beloved country celebrate its 52 years of independence. Happy birthday Malaysia. I can't believe it that Malaysia is 52 years old. I thought after living together for 52 years, we all would change our mindsets. However, sadly enough we still stereotype our neighbours based on their skin colour, religion and status. How can we live as one nation when we are all trying to outdo each other or trying to get rid of each other. In my school days(make me sound so old..haha...) my friends and I could get along very well. No such things as Malays, Chinese or Indians. We were Malaysians. We played galah panjang, football, aci duduk, ice and water and all the games kids usually play. We couldnt be bothered on what race or religion, we just played and have fun. But nowadays, times have changed. I guess the advancement in technology has changed the mindsets of people. Children rather spend time on their computer than playing with their neighbours and friends. In uni, people usually hang out with their own race only. This really was a big culture shock for me. A lot of my coursemates felt weird of me that I mix with other races. Is that a crime? I've been raised like that. Besides, we are Malaysians, not Malays, Chinese and Indians. What about our East Malaysian friends? People tend to brush them off aside thinking that they are not bright or slow. I know I'm kind off criticizing Malaysia right now, but don't get me wrong. I still am proud to be a Malaysian. It's just that these are issues that are yet to be settled then in the past and now in the present. As we celebrate our 52 years of independence, let us reflect back on how our unity got us thus far. Let us stop trying to win each other but work together towards Vision 2020. We should continue to live in harmony and respect one another. We must remember that we are Malaysians, 'Satu bangsa, Satu Negara' MALAYSIA BOLEH!!! Happy Birthday Malaysia!!!

Saturday, 29 August 2009

40 Days Fast and Prayer

The whole 40 days fast and prayer for our nation is coming to an end. This is my first time which I'd fasted facebook. a thousand apologies for people who have invited me to events and added me as a friend. These 40 days have been a blessing to me and I hope that I would learn to fast and pray even more. As we have prayed for our nation, I'm sure that God hears our prayers and will heal our land. As long as we continue to intercede for our nation, God will continue to shower His blessings upon this nation. Last Thursday, my CF had Hari Doa (Prayer Day). We gathered all Christians in UKM to pray for ourselves, our uni and also for our nation. It was really a powerful night and I know that our prayers would be answered. Yesterday night we had a combine churches prayer meeting. Congregation from all churches in Kajang gathered to pray for our country. It was really good. I would like to post a picture which I took at my church. it's a painting done by an Israelian. There was no theme. He said it was up to us on how to interpret it. So I would like you all to interpret it in your own way. There's no right or wrong answers. Your interpretation need not to biblical too. Just only what you see and what's impressed in your heart. Hehe...

Roller Coaster Ride

Wow just realise that I've not been blogging for quite some time. Been quite busy with I'm not sure what. I myself am not really sure what happen to all my free time. The first batch of assignments are due this week so it's crunch time again. My labs for one subject is done only 2 more labs to go I think. Just when you thought that the assignments period had ended, I thought wrong. Next week is my mid sem exams and the second batch of assignments has just come in and is piling up. The whole week has been a emotional rollercoaster for me. At the first day of the week, my bro told me some bad news. Then just when I finish talking to him, my mom called and told me to pray for a problem. During the week, a friend of mine was having an up and down crisis. One minute that person is scolding and blaming me. Then the next minute it was like nothing ever happen. Now at the end of the week, we are no longer speaking to one another and I really dont know why. But I would like to ask for your help in prayer and also in suggestions. I really cant do this own my own. I was so hurt with things that the person had said and I know that we should no take things to our hearts but I just cant help it. How can someone blame you for things you've never even done. And all the times I've been helping out that person. I sometimes just want to tell that person off but I scared that it will hurt that person feelings. I just feel that it is very unfair to the rest of us who have been caring and helping for that person and in the end get shoot back at. Anyway, I really dont know what to do. All I can do is being reminded to continue to pray for that person and myself. SO WHAT SHOULD I DO??? Am I too kind/naive that people always take advantage of me? Why do I always have to face people like this(for this is not my first time)? Is God trying to teach me something from this? So many questions are running through my head. I hope and pray that someone can help me in my dillema. I know at the end God will be there for me and I know that His love will never fail.

Sunday, 9 August 2009

Freshies In Sovereign Hand (F.I.S.H)

Just last Friday, my church cell group organized an event for the first years. It was an evangelistic event for first years. However, there were more second year than first years. Nevertheless, the main purpose of this event was to share the love of Christ to our friends. We had testimonies, presentations and games. The most important was that we had food. Free dinner for everyone who came. Haha... The event was a success and we hope that the friends we had brought would continue to open up their hearts. Thank you Lord for making it a success...

New Tune Intro Night

New tune is a chinese club for creative arts(singing, musicians and dancing). I'm not a member but I was asked to help play a few songs for them. They were lacking in musicians and since the president is Edmund(my good friends since childhood) asked me too, I helped out. I only went for practice like two times which was like two days before the event. This intro night is to introduce this club to the first years that just came in to uni. However all the songs that were sung/played are chinese songs. There was only 2 english songs out of the 10. The songs were actually nice and some of the songs were written by the seniors of the club. The whole night was great except of the sound system. The sound system was very bad. Nevertheless, it came to a success. Really enjoyed myself...


This sem I've 14 labs to do. Every week at least I have 2 labs. The lab reports have to hand in at least 3 days to one week after we've done the experiment. The labs this year are quite interesting. Finally we get to do surveying which is quite tiring and tedious but yet fun. Our environment lab let us test how clean our Faculty lake is. To my surprise the water in the lake is as clean as distilled water. Can you imagine that? The lake water is brown in colour and yet when we test is super clean. It's safe to drink and swim in it. I guess the phrase don't judge a book by it's cover is really proven. The other labs are for fluid mechanics which we experiment about water pressure in pipes and weirs(dams). All in all the labs are really fun but the reports are madness. So many graphs and calculations to do. Luckily we always manage to finish on time. Thank God!!!
Reflux for 2 hours
This chemicals is added and then titrated to test the Chemical Oxygen Demand(COD)

Land Surveying

The 2nd Saga Continues....

Wow...I've not been blogging for more than a month already. Well...I guess I can only say that I'm busy again. Busy with activities and assignments. nothing surprising for me...haha...It's my life I guess. As I begin my second year, many things have changed. Firstly, I'm a senior now...feel so old like that...haha...I thought when I get my new room I would be staying in the senior block whereby is a single room..However, I got back my old block when I was first year. Very happy even though I'm staying withh 2 roommates so that means there's 3 of us in the room. The room here is bigger than the room I stayed in my 3rd sem. The best thing is that it is so much cooler...most important..haha...My classes are pretty hectic since I have classes from Monday to Saturday and no breaks in between the week. Well I guess it helps me save money since I wont be able to go out that often...haha...This 2nd year I'm finally learning about my civil and environment engineering. So now I really know what civil engineers do..haha...

Monday, 22 June 2009

Kampar Mission Trip

Last Wednesday I went down to Kampar on a mission trip. I went to help Pst Nicky and his team for a Welcoming Party for the new students of UTAR and KTAR in Kampar. I followed a group from Nottingham. There were 8 Nigerians and 1 Kenyan. i knew them because we are all church members in Kajang. So I really enjoy myself working with them. It was great to see how talented they are. I also learned a lot from them especially in their culture and language. The Welcoming Party was a successful one. In all worked out fine eventhough with last minute practices. It was made possible because God's hands was upon the whole event. We targeted for 50 students to attend but ending up with 170 students. To God be the glory. It was really a nice night. I've learned a new song and 2 African songs. Haha... I really enjoyed myself. Kampar reminded me of my home town. Although I was so near to Ipoh, I couldn't go back for the weekend because I'd presentation today so have to prepare for it. But can't wait to go back next week....

3rd Semester Ends

Wow so long i've not be blogging. I guess probably I'm too lazy and also i was busy. My 3rd semester is finally ending. This week is my last week. This week is actually my final exam week so practically my 3rd sem ends this thursday and I can't wait. At last I can go back home. The sad part is I only will be home for only a week and I'm back in uni to start my 2nd year 1st semester. Oh well I still thank God that I can go back for a week. Time does really fly by very fast. I just finished my first year. My goodness, 3 years left. Pretty soon I'm going to graduate already. Oh well this 3rd semester was kind off like a break to me. I think I went to mid valley once a week just to watch a movie. never in my life have I watched so many movies. Let's see, first was Night At The Museum 2, then Terminator then was 17 Again. I think I'll be watching Transformers 2 this week. Although the many assignments in such short time I still thank God for His mercies. i also was at least able to set my priorities right for next semester. Thank God for my good results too.

Friday, 22 May 2009

Bad Day - Thank God has been quite a day for me. But it's actually a simple thing yet it turn horribly wrong. My car's aircond broke down two days ago and I decided to fix it today after class. Since I'm here in Kajang/Bangi, I really didn't know any trustworthy foreman. So I called my senior to help and we went to 7 shops all telling me the same thing but all with different prices. Didn't know what to do? I was so tired and it was so hot that I nearly crumbled to the ground. Each time they said the price, it gets higher and higher. Not only that, from one malfunctioned part of the car then it will lead to another. Meaning, firstly they said this broke then later another thing also broke and then another. It's like one whole package. Anyway, I was so lost. In the end, I just fix at the last shop that I visited. They did a real good job but I think they did ripped me off. It was quite expensive. Looks like I've to live on a tight budget. They keep telling me to fix this and that and I was thinking to myself that do they think that I print money. I'm still a university student living on a tight budget and here they are asking me to fix everything. Fear crept into me as I waited, it's like the old situation happening again. Back in Ipoh, I always had to fix the car. Now here again. Oh no... However, despite all this I still want to thank God. Through this experience, I managed to learn a lot of things. When I shared this in my cell group something hit me the most. A friend shared to us that sometimes we should listen first then pray. Maybe that's what I forgot. I only prayed and prayed that God will send me to a good foreman but I forgot to listen for His reply. Instead, I just went with my own intuation. Nevertheless, God still see me through it eventhough it was a tough ride. But I do know that God was trying to teach me something. I guess it was to listen to Him more when I seek Him. Thank you Lord for everything. Now everyday I'm going to pray for my car that nothing will ever happens to it again. Haha...

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

I Can Only Imagine/Everything

Recently I've been hearing these two songs over and over again and it inspires and encourages me a lot. I hope these songs will help you people too...

I Can Only Imagine
I can only imagine
It would be like
When I walk by Your side
I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When Your face is before me
I can only imagine
I can only imagine
Surrounded by Your glory
What will my heart feel
Will I dance for You, Jesus
Or in awe will I be still
Will I stand in Your presence
To my kness will I fall
Will I sing Hallelujah
Will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine
I can only imagine
I can only imagine
When that day come
And I find myself
Standing in the sun
I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship You
I can only imagine
I can only imagine
God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping
God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting
God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing
Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me, the hope of Glory
Be my everything

Worship Central

Yesterday I went to the Worship Central Conference in Damansara Utama Methodist Church(DUMC). It was hosted by Tim Hughes and Al gordon. It was a real wonderful experience. Honestly at first, I went there to listen Tim and Al sing but in the end I was there to praise God. God's presence was so strong there and I was so happy to see hundreds just singing and praising God. Tim and Al shared their own testimony and words of encouragement to keep on worshipping and serving God. Worship has the power to change the world and amazing things can happen when we worship. We have to have courage to be passionate, courage to be pure and run the race with perseverance. We must always look at the prize and that is Jesus Christ. For those who are in the music ministry, we must not fall into temptations. Worship leaders are not stars but servants. God wants servants and not stars. So remember that God should be everything in our lives. Everything that we do should glorify God be it in our studies, our thinking, our speaking and our actions. God must always be there. If you put God first, I'm sure that He'll continue to bless you...

Tuesday, 19 May 2009


Suddenly felt like doing a post about my family. I have a wonderful family. Though each of us have flaws but we do have our strengths too and these help us to stay united. Most importantly, the person that binds us all together is God himself. My family consists of my parents, my brother, me and my additional family member, my pet dog. Haha... I really thank God for giving me such wonderful parents. They nurtured and cared for me with all they have. At times you do wish to have other people's parents but in the long run no parents are better than your own parents. Besides, God had put me into this family and so I must live and love it. Parents may be annoying at times like asking every single detail of happenings in your life and they still treat you as a little child eventhough we are all grown up. But that is the way how they express love and affection. Have you ever thought of how they feel when they scold us? I think they are hurting inside too but they have no choice. As the saying goes, spare the rod, spare the child. So they discipline us to become better human beings when we grow up. My mom is like my best friend. We both tell each other everything. My dad is a good choice maker for other people except himself. I mean that he wants his children to grow up to have a better life than him. He doesn't want us to make the same mistake he did. He is also a very good cook. Next is siblings. I have a very good brother. Yes, as siblings we do quarrel but it will only last like 5 minutes. Don't remember fighting with him pyhsically though, only in words. At times is hard being the youngest in the family. When you see your brother doing so well in life and people start comparing you with him, it's way stressful. But it also got me to think how does he feel? Being the eldest is not easy either. He has to be more responsible and has to set pars for the younger to follow. For me I think being the eldest would be hard. Anyway, I really thank God that He had helped us through bad times and through good times. Though we may have our ups and downs, but we journey life together as one. Don't always complain about your family, you have only one family so live to love them. Everyone has their own imperfections but together you can help each other. Stop thinking about the 'What if' and start thinking about 'How to'. Live your life to the fullest. Your family is the greatest gift that God has given to you...